Yes, I'm back. I made $40 yesterday

I realize now why nothing I ever did amounted to anything. I still haven't read Harrington on Holdem but I really should take one day and read the first volume. I realize why I never amounted to much in poker and other things. It's because I wasn't mature enough. I played 40 SNG's yesterday. When I reach $300, I'm going to cash some of it out. My first cash out since like 2006. I'm going to try to make a few thousand this year.

Nothing on the internet really makes me mad anymore. Even bad beats don't really bother me like they used to. I don't like them but I'm able to continue playing poker now with the same kind of mindset that I had with blackjack. My problem was that I didn't completely understand how poker worked. I still don't understand some things. I watched every Daniel Negreanu training video that I could find. About 30 of them and I realize that I sucked on my post flop play. He was saying things that I never thought about.

I'd like to play about 200 SNG's per day. I only played 40 yesterday. I'm 2-tabling. Never been able to 2-table SNG's until now. I practiced on the play money games for a while until I got used to it. I can 3-table too but not as well.

Also, for anyone interested. I've ditched my car. I still have my license and everything but I'm riding an electric bike these days. Since I still don't have a job, I can ride my bike wherever I need to go. It's fun. It only gets about 10 mile range, though but hopefully with the money I'm making, I can get a better battery for it. I still have my car but it's just sitting there. I think the cv-joint is broken on it. And the battery in it is now dead since I haven't driven it in a long time. I don't really mind not having a car. I'd like to make enough money to fix it. Also, I'm completely broke now. No more credit cards. Went belly up. hahaha. I'm kind of glad because I'm tired of paying those bills.

I'M BACK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and I'm playing poker again. Let me tell you, that Boku87 inspired me. I took a long break from poker. And I found out about Boku87 by skimming the poker forums which I do from time to time. I don't go on poker forums very often these days since I'm banned at just about all of them. I only skim them about once every 4 months. I happened to across Boku87's $10000 in 15 days prop bet. That just inspired me. I don't get inspired very easily. I'm sure he's quite smarter than I am, though. I don't know if I'm going to continue updating the blog but wanted people to know that I'm playing poker again. I'm about to read Harrington on HOldem and I've got a bunch of Negreanu's poker videos that I'm also watching. I realize that I didn't know shit about poker. That's why I failed. Tonight, I made $20 off poker. I don't know whether to start a new poker blog or what. Maybe start a new username and get on the poker forums again undercover. lol

I just know.

Everyone is an asshole. These days your friends would kill you for money. All you got is your mother and your family so treat them well and be with them. The world is going to get very ugly. How do I know I've made it? I just know. If I showed you my trades, you would either think that I'm omniscient or that I have an inside man in forex telling me what to do. I've worked on this for 2 years straight...I took a couple months off but most of my days were spent thinking about it and doing various things to succeed.

2 YEARS !!! Most of you can't even sit behind an old lady at a red light.

Why am I the one to have discovered it? I don't know. Maybe because I asked the question and was willing to do what it took to find the answer. Because even though my credit card companies called me and said hey, you are $30,000 in debt, I hung up on them and continued my work. Even though everything around me has crumbled and my life virtually destroyed, I said what the hell...why not. And so I decided that I'd either be one of 3 things: a) dead b) homeless c) rich but definitely not middle class or average. If you think I'm joking, you obviously don't know me.

Anyway, comments are all disabled.....shoutbox is gone......it's over.......see you.....

Oh yeah, thanks to Dr. Pepsi and Robert for sticking by me all this time. Also, thanks to a few people from Internettexasholdem for still sticking by me and also Fullcontactpoker forum. It's been fun. It's been so fun and hilarious, this internet. For whatever reason, I have this drive in me that doesn't quit. I just wanted to prove to my mom that I wasn't a bum.

To all the haters

You know who you are. Moderators, owners of websites, etc etc, how you like my now? Looks like I got the last laugh.

I'll see you Puerto Rico....or Monaco...or Hawaii.

For anyone who wants to know

Do you guys really give a shit about this?

I'm considering shutting down my youtube account and this blog. Maybe even deleting the blog. I've achieved what I wanted. I don't know the whole purpose of this blog.....maybe the blog was necessary for me to get to this point. If you think this is a joke, it's not. WAs the blog necessary?

I don't know. Maybe I needed it to keep me going. No one likes to achieve success all alone. Success is pointless without people to share it with. It seems like the more success I achieve, the more alone I feel. I've done it. I've finally done it and I want to celebrate but who do I have? My mom. That's about it. My brother and I aren't speaking.

For anyone who wanted to know how it ended, I'm going to be rich in one year. THanks for sticking around with me. It's been quite a journey. I really didn't know if I'd make it. I honestly didn't or maybe somehow I did even in 2005 and that's why I started the blog. Weird isn't it.